This Wednesday I am traveling to my hometown of Chicago for the first time in 2 years to visit my parents and extended family. I have been through a lot in two years: 3 horrifying ER visits due to alcohol poisoning, 2 detoxes, and 2 45 day each rehabs. My little kids were sent home to Chicago to stay with my parents when this happened so EVERYONE there knows my past. I am really feeling nervous about this trip, I don't know how to be....I am so vulnerable still as I just got sober for good 6 months ago. I feel like everyone is going to be judging me-especially as a bad mother. I know I should say "just show them how good you are doing and be yourself, you are so much better now, it will work out". But I cannot shake my fears! I am 39 years old and feel like scared teenager, help!
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