I did it again Sunday at a family reunion. I have a big problem not to do with alcoholism and that is I have a driving phobia and it keeps me in now. I was petrified to drive on the parkway that distance and dealt with it by two drinks before leaving. Here we go again...was dying to continue when I got there...I made remarks to my relatives about my mother who is very cold and rude. I really think I have a split personality because I feel like two different people. I have to fight with the anger and rage in me all day long. I don't know where to start as alcohol is the only thing that gives me relief my these disturbing feelings. I am feeling very low right now!
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