I've had quite a long relationship with alcohol- I learnt early on it numbed the pain. It started when I was around 10years old. I faced years and years of abuse in all its forms; including incest. Later I drank to remember and get into my feelings; I convinced myself it was good becasue it helped my therapy. This lasted for over 8 years. I became I moderate drinker in my thrities, but began to realise this could slip easily into drinking daily or weekend binges. My health has been suffering lately. So 2 months in, Ive completely abstained without any friend support. Though the pain of realising how much I isolate myself is kicking in, and Trust issues. However, My spiritual practice and perspective on life is helping tremendously. I'd really appreciate hearing from others who can relate around intimacy and trust issues or other things I've flagged up.
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