"but the actual or potential alcoholic will be ABSOLUTELY UNABLE to stop drinking on the basis of self-knowledge."
I love this principle, this principle is a great tool against pride, arrogance, and a DIY agenda when wanting or needing to no longer drink.
If I am unable to stop, with the useless tool of self-knowledge, that implies that I need your knowledge to survive, to survive not being drunk, that means I have to communicate with you, despite the reality that I hate your guts and won't always fully believe you are the one tool I can confidently depend on if we are both wanting to no longer drink and manage our lives.
This principle is why you see Joe from the coal plant, communicating with Tyrone the ex-drug dealer at meetings. Both have a common bond in solution, both have a set of steps available to them that cut through the bullshit of class, status, race, religion, genders, etc. The pollution of character defect, also clouds my memory as an alcoholic as to what worked before, and my ego always thinks there is a different way, so the fellow alcoholic, is a reliable and knowledgable tool for all of us to take advantage of when committed to a life that includes no longer drinking.
What am I doing to make myself an asset to other alcoholics in my daily plans? I got to meetings, I am available to sponsor, I read the literature reguarly so I am ready when asked questions, but most importantly I ask God in the morning to direct my actions and thoughts towards helping others. I also accept with humility that it's God will of how a person is being help aside from that or those people deciding if it is helpful or not. Thinks that might seem harmful in the beginning, have turned out to be life saving measures for me and others in the long run, so it is very important for me to ask God for his guidance and leadership in the morning when taking on the tough task of helping human beings who all have some degree of ignorance.
I am grateful for the ignorance of man this morning, usually I am spiting it, using it to dehumanize he or she, bashing the providers of this planet with no shame, regret, or concern, but ever since I captured my hate the other day, and saw it's defaming and damaging agenda, the past couple of days people have become much more important, and I am really loving them more, understanding what they do and how important it is for them to be free to do what they want, as long as it is not seriously illegal.
I cannot tell enough of how important it is to be honest, even if intially it is met with a thunderstorm of criticism, misunderstanding, or intolerance, I must allow others to help, and continue to be honest, if I want to grow in recovery, and strengthen a spiritual experience that not only awakens me, but also awakens the whole world in regards to how I interact with them.
Day 6 and my First STRONG temptation to give it up-It’s the weekend-no work tomorrow.You’ve gotten past withdrawal. Two days and then back to it.Need some prayers and strength right now cause i’ve got more justifications right now than I have will power.
Day 5 has not been bad. I know I’m a LONG way off, but for some of you that have some months and years under your belt- how long before you stop thinking about it? I spent so long planning on where to get it, where to hide it, how to pitch the bottles etc.Just wondering. And thanks for the supporting comments. It might be silly but it helps.