I have lost everyone, everyone but my parents. my parents have been there for me more than i deserve. I have seen the dissapointment in their eyes, i just can not bare to see it again. It would be so easy, just to let it go. i have made one new friend and she is very cool. She is understanding and has a family who seems to understand and have their own problems. Sometimes, I wonder if she is reaching out to me for help, then I think, she is trying to help me, for some reason, maybe she see's herself in me, I can't figure it out but what I do know, is i am embarrassed, i don't know what she want's, why is she so concerned. I can't face it. I just can't face another day. I am giving up God help me, I am giving up. i am sorry, toni, joe, zeek, bev, rose, lisa and sheree and most of all to mom and dad and chris and torre and jelly bean, i am sorry, please take good care of torre and jelly and kenny I am gonna be with geronimo now I just cant take anymore, im sorry, please forgive me, nevermind, i wont give up, i am still here, i am not giving up, not yet!
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