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A good kicking!

deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey guys, hope you are all doing ok.
I have a request - I need a bit of a kick up the bum!
So, for a while now, I have been trying to give up the booze. Unsuccessfully. Then, last weekend, I did somethig awful. I have no idea what this something is, as I have been blacking out for a while now when I drink. I know it was awful coz my husband didn't speak to me for 2 days, and he's still a bit off with me even now, 6 days later. He won't talk about it. And quite frankly, I don't want to ask.

So, On Sunday, possibly a little drunk still, I went to an AA meeting, and was truely honest for the first time about what I was thinking. That is, I get to near the end of the week and a little voice in my head says
"Go on, you can just have one. You just need to stop before you get too drunk this time. You're not really an alcoholic, you just have sucky willpower!"

And they said, when that happens to speak to someone. Well,I'ma bit shy, so I'm speaking to you guys - please please remind me that I CANNOT just have one. I need a bit of a talking to.
Thanks for te support
xx
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh what a horrible disease. I wish I could stay sober. It does only get worse for me each binge. People get sick of drunks pretty quick. We run out of excuses and don't look all that cute anymore. Just keep trying, and maybe not tell other non alcoholics, sometimes they can be brutal with your progress. You only loose when you stop trying.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Would it be possible for you to approach the chairperson of your next AA meeting and ask that he/she suggest a topic of "the first drink?" I suggested this topic at a recent meeting when I was having a really tough time and it really helped. Also - here's your reminder. Alcoholics don't stop with just one and it doesn't have anything to do with willpower - our brains work different. All the willpower in the world won't cure it. As they say in AA - keep coming back.
ktharp423
ktharp423
Hold that thought.....The self loathing, being perplexed by what you might have done and not wanting to know.....you don't ever have to feel this way again.

The disease is very powerful, we cannot possibly beat it which is why we surrender. At almost 13 years sober I'm just as close to a drink as anyone else. I've learned to live without booze in my life, but that doesn't mean I can't walk around the corner to the liquor store at any time.

Go to more AA meetings, learn about the tools we use to stay away one day at a time. Listen to what some of the women are sharing and ask one of them (with at least a year sober) to be your sponsor. See who you identify with and that's who you ask. At times like this an actual person is more helpful than a website. Good luck.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I can totally relate to you, Carrie, I had about 4 months clean and then forgot the first step, about being powerless. Once you forget that the battle is lost, believe me. Like you and all alcoholics, I can't have one. One hundred, certainly. But that's where the problems begin and it isn't fun anymore, is it? The easiest thing is to pick up, "I will be different this time." We all know where that leads. So, now I am starting over, with the help of my higher power (find something!) and remember-one day at a time, one moment at a time moment at a time. I hate cliches, but it is what it is. Good luck to us all.
deleted_user
deleted_user
HELLO THERE ,ITS THE FIRST DRINK THAT DOES THE DAMAGE AND ALTHOUGH 23 YRS AWAY FROM MY LAST DRINK [A DAY AT A TIME ]I AM STILL ONLY 1 DRINK AWAY FROM A DRUNK ,KEEP GOING TO AA ,WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE ,OR HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT TO LOSE XXX
deleted_user
deleted_user
I know what you mean its horrible when you can't remember but you know you did something really awful. When thats happened to me I have tended to drink more to cover up how shitty I feel which gets you on the cycle of never stopping. I have been dry now for 9 days and although I still hate myself for some of the things I've done when drunk I am trying not to beat myself up about it but look at it as a new beginning sober. We are all only 1 drink away from grotty behaviour so as the old hands say, one minute, l hour, l day at a time. good luck my thoughts are with you.
deleted_user
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You're doin the right thing by posting this in my opinion... Reaching out that is. 90 meetings in 90 days... More if you can. It helps to give a real idea of what A.A. is about....
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