Hello all. I found this site by accident. I have 36 days sober today and I am depressed and I want to drink, but I realize I can't. I spent most of 2017 in a bottle (Vodka) with several TERRIBLE binges that lasted over hard drinking weeks to several weeks. My health and life is on the line....and I am reaching out. I don't want to die. I had 11 years sober in the 90's (1991 to 2002) and It was never this hard and I never felt this bad. I am taking it moment to moment. I don't want to drink.
I have been drinking very heavy for 3 years now and I want out, it's not fun anymore. I woke up today in so much pain! My head is killing me, my stomach hurts like crazy, and I have so much guilt it's unbearable. I can not continue life down this road. I want and need to stop but I've tried well over 30 times....
Looking for help with dealing with a spouse who is alcoholic. I need support of what to do