man can we as alcoholics make our lives as confussing as we want them to be. woke up in a fairly good mood, however just the sight of my sons father has pissed me off, hearing him walk around and just plain talking to me. i realize its not him hes just convient to blame it on. he is however an unhealthy person for me and i allow him all the time to suck me into his bullshit. working this program daily is vital. i loved reading some of everyone thoughts this morning, it helped me to get out of my head and take a step back to regroup. i can make some reallt horrible choices even sober, like i read last night, alcohol was a symptom of my problem, im my biggest problem and if i would just let go and let god, id be so much better. being sober is sometimes scary, cause being drunk is more familair, however when i play the tape all the way through, i realize no matter the day im having it is way better than any i had drunk. atleast when i woke this morning my car was in the drive way, my drive way and there wasnt a stranger besides me, however that may not have been so bad, lol, just kidding, well maybe not, LOL. hope everyone has a great day
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