I am at my wits end with this stupid drinking... i keep drinking and i am f*cking my whole life up. i am pushing everyone away with my outbursts and everyone is just sick of me... hell i am sick of me. i just really don't know what to do with myself anymore and it's killing me. i hate this cycle of self loathing and drinking... i know noone can help me but i just needed to vent.
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