Hey all.. I have been gone a short while.. too embarrassed and scared to come back here due to my relapse which occured last Monday after walking out of my job (while still sober) and for some idiotic reason, decided to pick up.. I lost 10 really good months.. I drank every day this week.. I want to get back , I just feel like I am a train wreck going down and cannot get the brakes to work.. hubby is happy I think , that I am drinking again.. helps him feel better with his alcoholism and denial.. I just wanted to say hi and let anyone who might care know, I still come here daily and read and wonder.. and ask myself if I will ever be able to get back on track.. 10 months... shit! just like that, man, I hate myself and this disease.. no, I don't want pity, (aint gonna get that here!) JUST WANT TO KNOW IF I AM STILL WELCOME HERE AND IF I CAN GET SOME SUPPORT.. ugh! life.
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