I hate this deseas.... i went 3 month and many meetings inbetween and still got drunk last night and continueing to drink tonight.. i don't understand whats in my way... i thnk about calling someone and then my mind stops me caue i think they will say dump it out and i don't want to... sometimes i wish God would just take me away and all would be good for everyone... yes. i know i am whining but ya know even while i am sober i feel and thnk the same way...I feel so alone and yet have so many ppl to talk too... i hate me i hate my life... thanks
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