I don't think you hate everyone or anything really but I do get the fear part. Well hate is a product of fear, I guess. I can't really give you strength but I can relate. I can't offer anything profound but I've been watching Seinfeld tonight and journaling. Sometimes it's the little things that help.

I was told fear is just a lack of love, so what I use to do when feeling fearful is think about all those who love me, and reach out to them, do the higher power work and just let the love melt away the fear. Works for me.

If you have fear you have no faith. If you have faith you have no fear. Simple solutions always work. Find you lost faith.

in my opinion u MUST ask GOD (or ur higher power, i sugg. GOD) for faith, once u have some faith will c things start to change. r u ready for some hard core change, is the question?

If somebody rattles your cage, it means you've got work to do. Our problems are of our own making. The farther away we've been from a drink, the more we need to work the steps, see our part, and move on. The last time someone was really truely able to hurt me, I was 12 yrs. old. The rest is mind made. The beauty of this is that since my problems are of my own making, then the answers and the solution is within myself also. Seek and you shall find. The truth shall set you free. If you don't like someone, tell them. If somebody wants to leave say, "God bless you and go in peace." Nobody can steal your peace, you just let them.