I am new here..haven't had a drink,I think it has been 6 days.I'm not sure?It has been all a bit of a blur.Can't sleep,can't eat..living on coffee,cigarettes and valium.I figure if thats what gets me through for now..then so be it..one thing at a time huh?I live in a small country town in Australia..help isn't readly available.I live alone so I am doing this on my own.I think I started drinking more to combat depression and lonliness...The Secret Life of Ella...only I feel more lonely than ever,the bottle was my friend.I do have a wonderful family and some dear friends but they don't know the extent of my problem..well,I don't think they do?I'm just finding it really tough at the moment and I'm scared.One minute I am thinking"I can do this" and then I am looking for a way out.Just feel so lost.
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