Well i just want to say that i dont want to get praises i just want to bring inspiration to all that is having trouble.so it here it goes. I have been drinking and doing drugs since i was 12. I have never been there for my mom and dad. I have six siblings. I wasnt there for. It was like i didnt care and really ididnt. Didnt care abput my mom and dad didnt care at all. At 16 i got pregnet i didnt care really. I loat the baby at 6months in me. I then went back to drugs and alcohol. I even didnt come home for a couple days. My nmom and dad really did care for me. Well i began to cqare about stuff about 5 months before my birthday. Sadly i wouldnt have parents or another baby sibling. My mom and dad got into a car wreck and past away. I broke down and told myself it was my fault it was me whyb dud i do this to them. I wnet to the funeral and i sat there i didnt no anybody there at all. It was really my fault. It was me it had to be. Well anyway af5ter they past my sister went back home and i havent seen her since. At the time my 19 brother was there helping me with the kids. I was determind ever to raise them with my brother or myself. Keep in mind i am 17. I knew that it was more then likly not possible. I sadly got a phone call at 3 am on june 27th 2010 that my loved 19 year old brother past away. Not only that he took his 2moth pregnet wife. Anmd ehr friend that she just met.it was hard but no dr no alcohl. I had the kids bout 3-4 months and then there was a runmor that i started up agin well everybody beleived i got them taken away. I have been fighting for them back but recently i have been really depressed to the point where i dont want to be bymyself because i am afriad i will hurt myself i had a friedn say i xcould stay with her and her parents. No kids tho. I havent got them back. Well i have bneen living with them for about 2 wks. Well they asked me if it would be okay if t5hey adopted me and the kids. Its taken me a couple days to think wow i will be a daughter again. Well i chose the best thing i hope. I chose them. Kid sto. It was hard to give up and no i couldnt do it alone. i think it will be the best. I am a happy healthy. Almost a year on may 26 the day after my parents died sober. No relapes no nothing. I iwsh ig didnt tske then dieing to be sober. Did the way i wanted all by myself. I just wnat to let you guys no i would nbe happy to help anyone that needs it.