Today is a new day. Yesterday is over. It has been a lot easier for me sinceI learned how to live in the day. Drinking never helped me in anything. The next day does come and anything I ever drank over was still there.

.. trouble is hun. We never blank out our troubles for just one night. We open up a cauldron of many nights of hell. There is no respite for us alcoholics, are can never take a day off, have a drink and then return back to our sober lives, unharmed again.

Today is indeed a new day. A new beginning and a new understanding of your alcoholism.

God bless,

Phil

Sounds good to me too sometimes. I'm scared I wouldn't make it back. Remember, it's a progressive disease.

what if....you don't make it just one night. What if nothing bad happens and you want to try it "just one night" again? You know you are playing with your life, right?

Hope you don't risk it, hun. You know it isn't going to be worth it in the long run.

I through out 10 years for "just one night", and I am struggling to this day to get back where I was....three years later! Please, think this over long and hard...try it for, say, the rest of the night?

Boy, I tried that (relaxing for a night...I can't do it just one night or have one drink) & it lead me into a 2 months of a progressive hell. I gave up 4 years of sobriety b/c I didn't want to feel anymore & relax(what?!?!?). As I agree w/ newbee "it's a progressive disease" and although this disease may tell me lies and say that it'll fix things... it is a lier..."CUNNING, BAFFLING & POWERFUL." You'll be in my prayers!

Can understand how you feel - I felt like that yesterday but said to myself "I'll do it tommorrow". I prayed in the morning for God to take away the urge and went to a couple of AA meetings and guess what - even though I had it planned in my head I didn't drink. Put it off until tommorrow (as tommorrow never comes). Good luck sweetie

hi oldhook there is never just one night,one drink, one is not enough and a 1000 to many.I always feel the way you do, but I'm only cheating myself. Don't give into it.

You sound just like me, but when I really think about it, there is no crap happening for me to blank out? so why do I do it? it would be nice just to have a couple of drinks and relax, but those couple always double and then treble and so on.
Every day I wake after drinking I feel worse than ever, it is indeed a progressive disease, it creeps up on you and kicks you in the ass, and you dont even know it. blessings to you.

thank you each and everyone of you, it means a lot to know you peeps care enough to post.

So many kind words, wisdom and great advice.

Thank you once again for understanding and not beating me up:) which i deserve.

May you all be doing well

You don't deserve to be "beat up on"! You are ill. You have a disease of the mind, body, and soul. The disease can be fatal. We all care what happens to you.

You didn't mention if you were in any kind of support/ recovery group?

Are /were you?

Ask the God "of your understanding" to remove the obsession to drink again.( the insanity of a real alkie)
God bless
Botbotcoco
http://www.londonppbbs.com

Botbotcoco is so right!

I have asked God for help and the tention, all the emotions running through me ease up! They do, I swear! That's simply "Letting go and Letting God!"

Are you in a support/recovery group as botbotcoco mentions?

A drink for me turns into at least 3 days of binging and 3 days of recovery after which I feel extreme self loathing. Often I would have also done something stupid that I wouldn't remember until I discovered evidence. Buying things online with a credit card for example. Not worth "relaxing."

ALL ANY OF US HAVE IS TODAY. YESTERDAY IS GONE AND TOMORROW NEVER GET HERE. SO START OVER WITH YOUR HIGHER POWER ON YOUR SHOULDER.

i always do that i have i bad day im i take a drink to relax but the drink triple i just do not know how to drink like a normal being God be with you