Before I quit drinking I was angry a lot. In fact if things did not go my way I would bully ,whine and piss and moan till I got my way, and if I didn't get my way after all that I would take my toy's and go play somewhere else. I thought I was punishing them by not letting them be in my presence.After a while acting like that, they didn't give a damn if I was there or not. I have found that people want to be around me now that my attitude has changed. If I don't call or see most of my friends in a while they will look me up. (here and in life) I did find just a while back that when I was put under pressure, I did revert to some of my old behaviours. I was surly. demanding and very critical. This lasted for a half a day, till I realised what I was doing. I went and made an amends to all the people I had affected. An amends is a change in behaviour, like an amendment is a change to the constitution. I find if I practice tolerance, acceptance, and humility everyday this soon becomes normal behaviour for me. Anger then doesn't ruin the rest of my day.
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