My ex-bf recently went to rehab and he will be there until the end of march. I had not talked to him for about 2 mos, refused to answer his calls or text messages over that time. When he went into detox he called me from an unknown # so I answered and listened to him. I left it as that...again declined to answer his calls. Until on day he sent me a text stating you should probably just move on I have decided that im letting go. I call him when I saw it...my heart dropped immediately! We talked and now over the past 10 day we have been talking everday, i have gone to the rehab center to visit him. Last night he came over to my apt the plan was to watch a movie have dinner etc....perfect evening right?
Well he went to check his email since he has been unable to check it for a mo or so. Immediately I felt the anxiety and bad feeling i used to feel. (When he was drinking he would look at naked pics of women online at my house when I wasn't home...chat with women on nasty sites...text other girls etc) . So went onto the computer to check my stuff, and as I am typing in myspace a link scrolled down of some chicks myspace page. All of that anger and insecure feelings immediately rushed in!!! I called him out on it. and he said that he was looking at old inbox stuff and was like who is this person and clicked on her page to see if he knew her (cuz the inbox message was from when he was drinking). He looked at it and was like oh I don't even know her and that was it.
We argued...and I took him back as he stated that he was feeling anxious and uncomfortable around me now..etc.
I am so confused!!! I know that I am still healing from all of the hurtful things that he did to me when we were together. Do we need to be apart to truly heal? Are we doing more harm than good continuing to communicate?