I feel extremely isolated & alone, like there's a giant wall between me and the rest of the world. I feel like such an outcast. I'm losing my friends and I don't really trust them or anyone else anymore. I feel so scared of dying alone. I feel i have no purpose in my life, i get up alone, go to school and go to bed alone and as i walk to my front door after school to walk in its like I'm walking into a cell, i know when i shut the door its the last contact until the next day. I've been avoiding talking people for so long because I was so afraid of getting hurt again. I don't know what to do anymore. Thoughts of suicide will not stop and I've fought back tears even during school thinking about it. I have no where else to turn to or anyone to talk to. My friends said i can talk to them about anything, but for some reason something is holding back from reaching out. I seriously need help.
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