My boyfriend finally talked me into goin to the dr alil over a month ago. I have known for years that i have had some problems. But never wanted to talk to anyone about them. Well the problems have been getting worse. So I laid it all out on the table for the dr. Told them everything i have been keeping in. As I was doing this i started shaking, really bad. My teeth were even chattering. But I wasnt cold. I was just scared. The nurse saw this and checked my BP. I told them I am scared to do anything anymore. In fear of people and of myself messing up somehow. I feel like I have been out of the loop of things for years. Like I dont know how to act. I havent driven in over a year. I remember driving I loved it. But not now. We got in a little fender bender. Since then Im affraid to even be a passenger in the car. I feel so isolated. I told them i used to cut myself as a teen. Even about being an A student but taking c- for a paper b/c I wouldnt get up in front of the class for the oral report. And some other things I have been dealing with. They said I have many things I need help with. Im Bipolar. and might have some problems with social anxiety. No really... u think? So the first thing they want me to get help for is the depression and mood swings. I dont understand this. I think im so depressed b/c Im feeling so isolated. I think if we tackled this anxiety problem that the depression would go away! Does anyone else have this problem with dr's? All they put me on was prozac and lithium.
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