soooo after reading the characteristics post. i realized that i dont allow myself to love anyone. i mean i love people and have lots of friends but not many of them truly knows whats going on in my head. and that list mentions that we have problems with intimate relationships. that couldnt be more true. i havent had a realrelationship since 8th grade. and thats the year my mom passed away. wow. i mean now i talk to boys and i play hard to get and i flirt with boys. but i wont get in a relationship with a guy. cause im afraid? i want to get into a relationship. but i wont allow myself. im afraid of what i could be. what they could be. how things could change. how do i live life if i dont allow myself to be loved or to love others on another level....
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