Lately, I have been struggling with a lot of feelings about my mother and all of ths e abuse that I was subjected to as a child. I mentioned before that I am expecting my first baby in the next couple of weeks, so I believe that this may be the cause of some of these feelings. In the past, I believed my mother to be a really cruel person, since, in my eyes, a person would have to be cruel to do what she did to me. After several years since she has passed on, I am slowly finding that I miss her and I am sad that she will not meet her grandchild. I am also starting to remember things that I could not recall before. The other day I was reading, and out of nowhere I remembered this little red chair that I used to sit in to read my books in my room. It's not that it was important for me to remember, but little things like this have been just "popping" up lately. When my mother had her drinking buddies over, I would have to go to my room and keep myself busy. It was there that I would get my little books and sit in my red chair. I don't know what the significance is of me remembering this now, but I am almost positive that more will come later. Any advice on how to deal with all of this?
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