Hi I am new to this. My husband and I were talking about adoption. We really would like to consider it in our life if the Lord takes us that direction. He thought about adopting first and then having our own children. I want to maybe have mine now and adopt later. The reason why I signed up is because I read an entry about not enjoying a pregancy now because they had given up a child for adoption. I too am conflicted because I did not have my child at age 15. Now married and 25 my husband boyfriend at the time are thinking about starting a family next year. I am worried I will not be able to love this child or will feel the feelings of loss and regret everytime I look or hold my new baby. Has anyone ever been through this? The termination was not my decision. Everyone in our families made me feel helpless and I was afraid of placing the burdan on them. I still cry everyday about it. Goes to show time does not make everthing better. There is a piece of me missing and it always will be. I think of helping a pregnant teen like I wish there was someone there to help me but is that the answer? My husband is supportive but we really don't talk about it much. There are so many children in need of loving homes part of me feels driven to help. let me know what anyone has to say. I am so torn.
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