My son was adopted just over 3 years ago. My first and only child. I don't know how to regain a life after. I died a little the day the counselor took him from me to his A. mom and dad. I try to fight the depression and emptiness on my own but it's not working any more. I have gone to a chaplain for help, but that was a disaster. I could barely talk because i was so emotional and he didn't understand at all. I find that talking about it out loud doesn't work, because I get so emotional and cry so much that my mind goes blank, it's like an explosion of tears and then I just go numb again because the pain is too intense. I raised my son up until 11 mos. and nursed him, and so we bonded so strongly. He came a few weeks early and so the adoption was not fully in place and there was no way I was going to place him in a foster home, so he came home with me. Any advice from natural mothers on anything healthy that has helped them cope with losing their child, and to keep on living? It feels like it happened yesterday. And I haven't been "living" since he left. I feel like i died and I'm watching a miserable girl from the outside.
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