Adoption Support Group
Adoption is the legal act of permanently placing a child with a parent or parents other than the birth parents. Whether you are looking to adopt, putting your child up for adoption, parenting an adopted child, or just thinking about it, this is the place to discuss.
i just feel so lost in this world. all i want in my life time are my bioparents. i feel so lost and abandoned witout em. therez like this empty part of me becuz i dnt kno em. i wud do anythin to be able to meet them and talk to them. i still feel like im a mistake. im alwayz thinkin of how different my life could be if i was never adopted. im alwayz wonderin if my bioparentz wanna find me as much as i want to find them. i realli love them and miss them even though i'v never met them before and even though my biodad might not even know that i exist. i wonder why my mother put me up for adoption. she was 21 when she had me and even before i was born she set up the adoption for me. she just gave me to this angency and didnt care where i went,just to a good place.
i see family's that are together. i see my friendz who's parentz had them when they were 16. i hear some friendz complaining about their parentz and how they annoy em. and all i wanna do is cry. i would be so happy to be able to live with my bioparents. to know yur family. to not have an empty space in you. to not be put on this planet alone.
i wont be completely happy until i find my bioparents. thatz all i want in this world. i need them. i wanna fit it. i dont wanna be different anymore. i wanna look like someone, have this person's eyes, her face, his smile. i want answers that only my biofamily could answer. as soon as i can im goin to search for my bioparents.
i see family's that are together. i see my friendz who's parentz had them when they were 16. i hear some friendz complaining about their parentz and how they annoy em. and all i wanna do is cry. i would be so happy to be able to live with my bioparents. to know yur family. to not have an empty space in you. to not be put on this planet alone.
i wont be completely happy until i find my bioparents. thatz all i want in this world. i need them. i wanna fit it. i dont wanna be different anymore. i wanna look like someone, have this person's eyes, her face, his smile. i want answers that only my biofamily could answer. as soon as i can im goin to search for my bioparents.
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
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My ENT sent me for more tests last week...one where they had me lie back in a chair, with blacked out goggles on so I couldn't see while they administered water into my ears one at a time ( first warm, then room-tempurature, then cold) while they video taped my eyes and asked me questions to determine how cognizant I was... This test went HORRIBLY. They were about 20 seconds or so into...
I'm an adoptee too, however, I'm turning 40 this year and I'm what they call a late discovery adoptee. I found out when I was 18. But I feel everything that you are feeling. All of it! I have the same questions the same wondering what if I lived with my own biological family which we were both denied of unfortunately. In regard to your illness (your leg) I would want to find out everything about your disease, have you looked into getting a second opinion? I feel bad that you're in pain physically everyday. I mean I know how much pain you're going through emotionally enough because of the adoption issues that we both have but to be suffering physically as well thats really tough on top of that you're only 14 and it can be a really confusing time at 14. I hope that you find more information about what is ailing your legs and hopefully you'll be in better spirits soon and I hope that you can find the light in the dark tunnel.
My Bm is from another country and religion.I found that quite a shock.It is great to look like others,it is reall quite wierd but the important thing is that I was raised by people who really loved me and I am hoping that your family was like this too.Was it?Do you have non biological sinlings that love you?
The desire to meet ones natural family I find for me is really strong.I think you have to be prepared for the good ,the bad and the ugly though cause you can be left reeling ,wishing you had never known anything.I ,being me,had to know and I have faced what it has presented to me.It's not good but maybe it won't be bad forever.And hey,it could be really good for you like other people,I just want you to be prepared before you search for both outcomes.Even when you think you are prepared sometimes you really aren't.It also involves many emotions.That was sort of a ramble but I am trying to write as I think and my fingers arn't as quick as my brain.
I wish you a happy re-union.