I gave my daughter up 15 1/2 years ago, and it was a open adoption, and I could see her write to her and talk to her when ever I wanted as long as she was up to it. However six months ago, she told me that she was secretly cutting herself and I had to tell her parents. Then she started calling me all teh time, and then asked if she could move in with me. I told her she had to find out what her rights were, because I didn't have any, and within a month she was gone. I feel like I have failed her. There are days that I just don't want to do any thing, but I have a 2year old who needs me. I don't know what to do, my husband doesn't understand, the pain. I hurt fromthe inside out and it won't go away.
I never got help dealing with it, and I did what I had to do to get through highschool. Most of the time I am okay, but since about April I hurt and cry more and more.