I have no idea how to handle this anymore. I'm losing faith in everything. My birthmom and i've been talking since i was fourteen and i'm turning 18 in November. We've talked over email, on instant messaging, on the phone. I would talk to her at least once a day. She would have periods where she would pull back and not talk to me though. The longest one of them lasted was 6 months. She would email me about once every two/three weeks and say sorry and that she loves me etc. Then I went to visit her for five days. My parents let me fly to visit her all by myself. It was this past august. Best five days of my life. She finally became my mother. Then we talked on and off till october. Then she just stopped talking to me. Didn't hear from her for 8 months. Nothing. Not a single word. Not on my birthday, christmas, nothing. Last friday i got an email from her. It kind of hurt, but she said she still wanted to talk to me and that she wanted to do it through email. I was totally ok with this. I emailed her back that sunday. I know it's only thursday but she still hasn't replied. This was not at all how we use to email. I would get a reply back that day, or the next day. I can't stand her doing this to me any longer. I cant handle this. My parents aren't any help either. They had no idea how i felt about any of this bc i kept these two worlds so seperate. They finally know and they are freaking out. I'm not allowed to talk to anyone on DS, but i still manage to sneak on. They've taken away everything..all my support and have left me with only their "support". They don't get it and will get angry with me when I try and talk to them about it. I can't handle this. I have no idea what to do.
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