Some of you may have read a post I had on here not that long ago about spreading out family time during the holiday season. My birthmom wanted me to come see her for Christmas and I was struggling to find the time to do that. Between my divorced aparents, and my in-laws, free time isn't that abundant. Well, as it does sometimes, time has gotten away from me and now I wont be able to see her before Christmas. I am finding myself very sad about this. I looked at it like a burden because I was going to have to make a 3 1/2 hour trip and spend time I didn't have to be with people I barely know. I just spoke with her on the phone a little bit ago and right now I feel like hopping in the car and driving there tonight. If it weren't for my little ones here asleep, I would probably already be on my way. I wish I could be in more than one place at a time. I know she understands about having other obligations, but still, I dont want to disappoint her. I will see her after Christmas and that will have to do. On the flip side of this, if it were that important to see me for Christmas, couldn't she come to me?She has never been here. I have gone to her each time we have had plans to visit. Granted, that has only been twice. We have only been in contact since Sept. She has canceled each time she was scheduled to come here. So why do I feel guilty about not making the time?
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