I had a baby when I was 16 years old. I gave the baby up for adoption.. Since then however, about 2 months after giving her up I ended up w/ panic attacks/anxiety/depression. But I'm not sure if thats the reason I got all those. I'm starting to wonder if I always had those issues. Anyway is there anyone out there with the same situation as me. When I came back home from giving her up, my parents "meant well" but wanted me to have a normal life again and well they decided to never talk about it again. It was good when I was young I thought, but over the years I've noticed that I break down every once awhile and it's horrible for me for months. I feel like such a bad person for what I have done. It's almost like I beat myself up constantly for it.... I would love to someday meet my child. But right now I don't. I have nothing to offer the child. I'm starting to come to terms with it in some ways, knowing that I was tooo young to care for a baby. The father was my first "love" and he could of cared less and left me. Well we really never really dated he just didn't care... I've been afraid to write on here cuz it's such a big secret and only my family "not all" and close friends know about it. But I'm tired of hiding and just want it to come out already....I guess I could go on and on just wondered if there was anyone on here that went thru the same thing????? Thanks :)
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