I am so sorry to all of you in this group. I have not been feeling very well physically and emotionally lately at times. I had the weekend off thank goodness but I have to work during the week and my job is tiring lately and I'm also like stressing out bad about being so close or alot closer to finding out who my birth mother is. I had a panic attack last week. Almost too much excitement and too many emotions for me as well! I'm so sorry I haven't been as active in the group. I have really been drained lately from work and this issue with finding out who birth mothers is. It's very scary and close to one of the biggest risks I've ever taken in my life. I am scared to death literally! I have no idea what to expect! I know reading other posts on here about meeting birth mothers and that makes me hesitant to meet mine but I do want to know the truth about my life before I was adopted. I do need to hear the truth but sometimes it's just hard to hear it though. I don't want this to be a confession here about myself that makes it like I'm blaming other people. You all are very helpful and I need to hear everything about everyone. Some of it just really is a big issue to me and I'm very scared! It's my problem though and my issues not anyone else's. I do agree also with posting or at least telling people that you did read their posts. I'm sure that would make members feel better and want to post more. I will agree to do that and if I don't have anything helpful to say I apologize in advance. Sorry, if this seems more like a journal entry. Just wanted to get some stuff out in the open and apologize too. I love you all and please keep posting and replying to posts!
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