I left something out in my last post. I have been searching for my biological mother since November of 2007. I have not told my adoptive parents or my adoptive sister. It's been a hard secret to keep but I have had no choice since none of them would be supportive of me doing this. They don't understand why I would want to do this and do not want me to. I have had to go behind their backs and that has been the hardest part so far. That seems to be causing me alot of anxiety. I want medical history. I want more answers than what my adoptive parents could give me and I just want some closure. A few years ago a bit after my adoptive parents divorce my adoptive father told me that my biological mother left a letter for me when they brought me home. I never did get to read it though since my adoptive mother tore it up. I found out that she told me bits and pieces but not all of it and my adoptive father could only remember so much of it but he did remember it saying that my biological mother hopes that I try to meet her someday. That is what has really thrown some motivation into this search. It's been a big key factor. I also just want some answers and medical history that courts won't give me. Since I have an idea that my biological mother would more than likely love to meet me I am not quite as worried at times. Sometimes I wonder if 25 years has changed that but who knows. Only time will tell now. It's been hard keeping a secret from people that I love and it was hard to stay away from another person because other people that loved me didn't want me to know this other person that may have questions for me and want to talk to me. Thanks for letting me share!
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