I responded to a discussion and I shared my story. It made me curious about other's response when they were diagnosed. I read books and in all of them some say they were relieved and others say they were happy. My response was not that good. I did not feel relief, I just could not believe it. I also did not know as much as I thought I knew about ADD. I hope I do not offend anyone when I say some of my feelings but here goes; I felt like, damn, now I have to take meds everyday? I began to worry about the side effects of the meds, I began to worry about what my family would say and think about me, I was worried about what my boyfriend would think about me, I guess I felt ashamed, and I felt bad that my thoughts of trying to be perfect were covering up that long feeling of not being just as good as everyone else, and to me having ADD meant just that. Now I am more educated and many of those feelings has gone away, but some still remain. My therapist needs me to have a physical completed by my doctor for her records. I have no idea where this form is cause i sat it to the side cause I don't want to go to my doctor and tell him what is happening and that I now take Concerta. What will he think of me? This is bad, huh. Am I the only one that feels this way? Cause there is no relief here, just anxiety, anger, and frustration that this is now something I have to put hard work into for the next few years. Any thoughts?
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