My 11 year old son has ADHD and I have PMDD. I can't tell you how hard life is sometimes. I love my son so much, and he has so many precious, loving qualities that I adore, but he can be the most difficult person to love sometimes and he will push every button I have till I flip out and say stuff I can never take back and wish I'd never said. "Why can't you just do your homework like other kids????", "Why can't you just stop arguing with everyone and do what your told???? Why can't you just behave????" I've been up all night again rolling around in my guilt as we had another ugly episode a couple days ago in which he came home with a 2 week family tree project, due the next day, and he'd been given an extra week. His teacher calls me and wants to hold him back in the 5th grade another year, he doesn't listen, he won't do the work, he's socially inept and argues with his peers, etc. His teacher actually caught me on a PMDD day, and I told her I would jump off a bridge if she called me ever again. And I am MUCH calmer now that I have finally found a medication that works and keeps my really horrific PMS down to a few days, it used to last about 2 and a half weeks. I'm at my wits end, I don't know how to help my son, and I am scared to death that I am damaging him worse.
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