I have always felt strange or different. I feel like I have these abilities to see more than the average person. It is almost like when I meet someone I feel who they are. My therapist says I take in a lot of energy from around me and don't know how to filter it, so it makes me have way too much in my brain. I am creative, can write well, sing, paint, draw....and I think it is really good stuff...so do others. I am hyper aware and it drives me crazy sometimes. I meet someone and instantly know who they are in a weird way....however, my emotions really take over my rational mind. I get caught up on a simple weird look my way..thinking I did something wrong. Then my whole day is ruined. I am terrible at my own self-judgement. I am my worst enemy all the time and self-sabatoge even when I know for sure the right choices are best for me. I diagnosed myself a million years ago...I have all my treatment already there for me to follow...before I even met with a counselor. I just can't do it. It is almost like I am afraid to be doing well. So, I continually do something to make me fail. What the heck is my problem, and does anyone relate at all????
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