I'm on new meds now but I don't think they're working. I'm taking Epiduo... my acne's not getting any better. The only thing that hides it is 9000 layers of makeup, which makes it worse. I'm sick of having the worst skin in my class, sick of being the only person at school who took Acutane and still has acne, sick of knowing that I had acne years before anyone else in my grade, sick of hearing my sister compain about her acne when hers goes away and doesn't leave any trace whatsoever, nad being easily treated with Clearasil pads. I'm sick of all of the creams and scrubs and pills that don't work, or do work only for a few weeks until I run out or I become immune to it. my acne is never going away. It won't go away by the time I take my senior pictures, It won't go away when I turn 18, it won't go away when (or if) I go to prom, it won't go away when I graduate high school. It can't be genetics, because my parents never had acne so bad it left scars or covered their entire face. mine doesn't cover my entire face anymore but now it's in a spot I normally didn't get acne in before and everywhere else is scarred from acne. I tried eating healthy at Governor's School, that's actually when my acne started really coming back, and then on top of different water (the water at GSW was city water, I use well water at home) my acne went crazy, and even though I've been home for nearly 2 months my acne hasn't gone away. it's not diet, it's not the water, it's not genes, what the hell else can it be?! is my skin just that awful? nothing works, ever. I'm going to be stuck with this for the rest of my life. I know it. I've had it since I was 9. I'm 17 now, almost 18. The clearest it's been since then was when I was on Accutane for six months at 16. I'm out of options, really. It's also jsut now starting to come back on my shoulders and back too... I'm never getting rid of it. ever. that's all people see, it's why I can't keep a boyfriend or even get one, there's no way I'm going to prom, ever. I'm screwed.
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