I was in a car wreck aug 06/ I remember I was in my friends car and we were going to look at a house for rent. We were driving down a side street and his seatbelt dinger went off. He is very strict about seatbelt and he told me to put it on. Not even a half a block later we were going through an intersection when a woman doing 45 in a 30 and talking on a cell phone failed to yield and t-boned the driver side. I don't remember feeling any pain at the time. Being in the medical profession the first thing i did was move all my limbs to make sure nothing was broken. then i got out of the car. my friend was already out of the car on the ground crying. he had just bought this 13000 Nissan out right. and it was totaled. the driver side tire wasn't even attached anymore. The woman that hit us was trapped in her car so i pried the door open to help her out. she still had a cigarette in one hand and her cell phone in the other. The police showed up quicker than expected for Spokane police department. maybe i didn't realize how much time elapsed. They kept asking me if a needed an ambulance. I didn't realize it but i had blood all over my chest from the seatbelt literally slicing into me and I wasn't walking right. I also had tears pouring down my face. I didn't realize. I notice my ankle was grinding really bad. I still didn't feel any pain. As I was talking to the cops I tried to walk away and i collapsed on the side walk. It was the worst pain I had ever felt. My ankle would not move. They called an ambulance and took me to the ER. They pushed me out the door saying it was a slight sprain. and to go home and ice it. a few weeks later the pain did not go away. it increase on a weekly basis. I went to doctor after doctor(total of 6) who said there is nothing wrong with me and i just want pain meds. I couldnt even wear heals on my wedding day. I had to wear sandle. I found out 2 weeks after my wedding (sept 3-07) that I would have to have surgery. I had a bone chip the size of a pea in my joint. After my surgery my orthopedic surgeon tells me that I will have to have surgery every few years for life to be able to walk and they will eventually have to replace my ankle. I have no cartlidge and I am a chronic pain sufferer. I had to give up my career and my passion to have a desk job talking on the phone so im not on my feet all day. I have extreme anxiety attacks all the time and i cant sleep.and for some reason the insurance company only thinks a permanent lifetime disability is worth 25k. i have 20k in medical bill and it will continue to go up and up. my husband doesnt understand why this affects me so much and why i cant just accept the fact that i will be in pain the rest of my life. truth be told I am not even sure why i cant just be happy. The scene of the car wreck plays over and over in my head on a daily basis. some days it is worse than others. some days i am ok but i am so disturbed that there is nothing i can do. I am so angry that one persons mistake can screw up my entire life and not even think twice about it. I just need some one to talk to and help me through this that better understands how i feel. I was such a happy go lucky strong person before this but now im not so sure how much more pain and flashbacks i can take.
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