I'm young and have been very sheltered and I think my thought process about relationships (guy/girl or just friends) have been getting reshaped. I've learned you can't be too trusting. I dont really get noticed by guys but I finally met someone who had my type of personality. One night he was basically mauling me and crossed the line completely by forcing himself on me (in that way). I was a virgin. I still count myself as one but I feel damaged and not the same. I think it's mostly mental. Especially because later after I forgave hime because he said he was sorry, I found out that he was sleeping with a mutual friend and after she left him he forced himself on me. I dont know. I'm rambling. But I guess this has taught me one of many life lessons and I'm tryin to focus on the learning and growing aspect of this than on what happened. Does this make sense?
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