i know this is kinda long and stupid but this is a true realy a true story from my life. when people ask me if i am a virgin i tell them that i am not but at the same time i might as well be. i consider a true non-virgin as someone who has had sexual intercourse, not including oral sex or sex with yourself but based on my own standards i still don't now if i am or not. the reason i say i'm not a virgin is because of the one time when was a freshman in college. i met a much older guy who worked for my school and that same day he was snuck into my dorm room and he begged me if he could spend the night because he would have to walk a very long way home and the buses did not run that way. i believed him and he turned out to be telling the truth but thats not the point anyway. we started talking then he made advances and we started kissing and groping. i don't want to get to graphic but one thing lead to another and we ended up naked. then we proceded to have oral sex. he did me first then but i really did not want to do him but i did lick it but he tried to force it in my mouth and i didn't let it in. then my memory gets kinda fussy but he put the tip of the head in me and i was seriously shocked (i know i was stupid) and i pushed him off of me and said no and at this point i was extremely turned off that he did not want to use protection so that like ruined the prospects of me ever having sex with him ever. i felt awkward, disgusted and foolish and thankful at the same time that he didn't take advantage of me and that i didn't have to kill him and ruin his and my life. that was the closet contact that i've ever had with a real live penis even til this day. because of those feelings i felt i just felt like i lost my virginity. i suppose thats how it would feel anyway for someone like me and so i say i'm not a virgin.
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