3+ months sober and still lots of questions. First, it took forever for me to finally read and ingest the big book but since I read it I've barely had time to reread or really devote time 'work' the steps. I've found myself pondering them and answering questions but actually working, no. I've maintained my sobriety thus far by daily meditation provided by Hazelden's 24 hours a day and attending meetings and keeping the thought of remaining sober in the forefront of my mind. Second, sponsorship or finding a good sponsor. I know we all lead busy lives but I can't manage to find time to squeeze much else in so I'm not sure what to do about a sponsor or how much time having one and working the steps would require. My kids are quite understanding, they want me to do whatever it takes to stay the mom i've become BUT my hub is another story. I feel that we are already on shaky ground (to the point that I'm contemplating the single life which might be a better fit)and if I take much more time out of an already overloaded schedule my decision would be made for me. I know he wants me to maintain my sobriety but I'm sure he doesn't want any more time taken out of the day. I guess I'm looking for a cut and dried answer but i'm not sure that there is one.
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