I have 2 grown daughters and if I don't comply to their wants and desires they cut me off from any communication. It was bad enouf that my when my Mother and Step Father passed away I was cut off from the family unit. I hVE NEVER FELT PART OF ANYTHNG OR ANYONE. oN THE OUTSIDE i CAN LOOK OK BUT i NEVER FEEL WANTED. tHERE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A HEARING FOR MY GRANDSON TODAY BUT IT WAS CANCELLED UNTIL THURSDAY. i WAS NOT TOLD. i WENT TO THE COURT HOUSE AND HAD TO FIND OUT ON MY OWN. sOMETIMES i WISH THERE WAS A GRAVE FOR ME WITHOUT A GRAVE MARKER. i DO NOT EXISTE. HOW The only safe people to be around oare the dead people. As long as no one is around my house is my only safe haven. oh how i wish i could have a drink. when i drank i didn't care. This crap stinks. shit i am 64 --who give a shit.
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