Im really not sure what to say??? I am on day one AGAIN, God knows i have been here so many times. Yesterday i drank, i surprised myself... i only had 2 drinks. Usually i have a pint. Everyday I wake up with the total mind set that i am not going to drink.......Seems like i always end up at the liquor store with a pint in my hand, could be because im depressed, or arguing with hubby, or i just think it is a good day to drink. There are a hundred good reasons to drink. But even though i am in line with that bottle in my hand what gos through my head is ....what r u doing....ur only letting urself down. And then i keep kickin myself in the a** because i know one drink is drunk!!! Why do i keep doing this to myself i feel like i am in such a battle.......with ME!!!
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