I have to say thank you to God for my sobriety, I am going through this thing with my daughter, she is 17. If I was still doing the things that I was, it wouldn't matter so much , ya know ? I know she will have to go through what ever it is she must go through. THe alcoholic like me wants to fix - fixing pple is what I did best....lol on that one. Watching her is like watching me at that age, she doesn't do the drugs thank God, but I met her love of her life today..... no bueno... God, we all sat and talked for a couple of hours, it is like myself and first hubby, it is hard to swallow, it really is, they drink to their happiness. they are experimenting with one another and she has one more year of highschool, I told her that she is trusted and I know she will finish school, she said that was her priority, so I said okay. THis boy is 20 years old, no schooling, no job, got another girl pregnant, married, wants a divorce, no license, no car, but loves me daughter. Me daughter loves him. So they drink to that. I just pray for them. He is not a bad kid, very smart actually and I told him that, but do not expect him to use it. Cuz, he isn't. Venting is the key here. If I was still drinking, it wouldn't matter, it really wouldn't and that scary. I am sober and it matters.... it is hard watching your child go through the same mistakes. Now I know how my mom felt.... shit.
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