Yesterday something set me off and I wanted to die so badly. I called someone who I thought wouldn't tell on me, but she did. She knew I've felt this way before but why would she tell on me now. I kinda understand, but I told her I would be ok. I'm not trusting her anymore, I have another close friend who would NEVER tell on me about a thing.. I should of just called her if anybody. I usually do, but made a big mistake by calling the other one. My Dad wasn't to mad, just told me he told me before I should be calling him and not other people. He's leaving on a trip tomorrow but should be back in a week. He wants me to talk to someone. I just came off my medication as well because it was causing to much pain in my body so that could be why I acted the way I did. As I was crying I was hitting myself so badly, and wanting to die. Still want to a little today but not as badly.