FallenAngel's Journal

Thank you all for your comments.  We all have found our own small ways to get through this huge grief we carry.  It helped me so much to hear all of your stories and it helps even more to know that I am not alone.  My counselor has told me that there is no reason for me to rush in to getting rid of Gene's things and that one day I'll wake up and realize it's time to let go.  She told me if I do it too soon, I might regret getting rid of some things that I should have kept.  I still have the bag of clothes from the hospital.  They had to cut them off of him so I know they should go in the trash, I just can't even look at them right now.  All in good time.

My son had a bad day on Thursday and that makes it even harder on me.  But I try to stay strong and help him through even though I know there isn't anything I can do but be there for him, and he feels the same way about me.

Well, I'm going to try to get some gardening done today.  I've conquered the grass for this week and I'm hoping it doesn't rain for a while so it will have a chance to dry out.  Tomorrow I'll be painting my son's room for him as the room he's moving into is lime green, not his color.

I truly wish each of you peace in your heart today if only for a few moments.