Journal Entry for April 18, 2009
April 18, 2009 11:44am
No dude im not..... i gotta pack this wednesday and from bummin and sharn, i probably smoked 8 in 4days. Still could be doin alot less. D:... and yeah
AP27
4:37pm, March 27, 2009
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About Me
AP27
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About Me
Well now im 17, which doesnt feel any different lol...(not like i thought it would). I live in Spokane Wa. I got school fixed up, im going to M.E.A.D, and its pretty damn awesome, summers almost here and im actually lookn forward to school..strangley..lol...I like having fun, girls, music and sports. I came out to my closer relatives about 11 months ago, but im still trying to be open to everyone else in the fam and eventually to everyone else..if they havent already figured it out.l...lol
Well now im 17, which doesnt feel any different lol...(not like i thought it would). I live in Spokane Wa. I got school fixed up, im going to M.E.A.D, and its pretty damn awesome, summers almost here and im actually lookn forward to school..strangley..lol...I like having fun, girls, music and sports. I came out to my closer relatives about 11 months ago, but im still trying to be open to everyone else in the fam and eventually to everyone else..if they havent already figured it out.l...lol
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Interests
Music, piercings tats, bikn and four wheeln...friends and stupid sports like paintball, wakeboarding and rugby. Im tryn to quite smoking and drinking... their really bad habits that ive gottn pretty addicted to. Other than that... i like havin fun with my fam and my bestie...lol.... Ive gotn better with smokin cigs but thats not all the smoke you can inhale lmao
Music, piercings tats, bikn and four wheeln...friends and stupid sports like paintball, wakeboarding
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April 7, 2009 3:39am
1.I need a cigarette: at some different times2.Sex: good when you can get it, not the end of the world when you cant3.Relationships: are over rated …
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Just got home doin a survey... lol...still bored
April 6, 2009 5:08pm
Lets start out with something, oh so clever, whats your sign?CapicornCongratulations! You just had a baby boy! Whats his name?ShaneWhat …
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Just Hella F@ckn Bored
April 5, 2009 9:24pm
Whats your middle name?Sierra, like Sierra Mist lol.How big is your bed?Queen... big enough for two...maybe three.What are you listening to right …
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Breakn a Sweat
April 5, 2009 7:15pm
Just woke up a few hours ago and gotta wild hair up my ass to go move this big monster truck tire i have in the back lawn. I wanted it cuz i wanted …
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HOLA..HOW R U?
Moment of Peace
whats up i live just outside of spokane
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it would take a paragraph to tell you all thats been going on. read my journals.
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been a while since I heard from you, hugs.
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Close Teen Sexuality
Type: Gay / Lesbian IssuesIve been out with my inner family for a short while, but im still trying to come out to my gradnparents and those relatives.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- Ive talked with my mom and my aunts first (about being gay) and they all seemed really happy for me for being able to come out to them. But now my life is still hard, comeing out only gave me a sense of pride and the ability to talk about girls in that way without them looking at me funny. Hopfully it will get better thougth.
Close Coming Out
I haven't came out to all of my family, and I'm having a hard time choosing when I'm actualy going to do it. Any advice would be great.
Open Gay & Lesbian Teens
(read my profile)
Open Alcoholism
Im only 16 and ive gottn myself in alot of trouble because of drinking. I just need some advice.
Open Shyness
I get really really shy all the time, its messed up alot for me, but im tryn to work on it, and be more open and not shy.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- I talk to people and they talk to me, its kinda helping.
- Pets Working / Worked
- I talk to my dog, and its way easier than talking with people.lol
- Self-esteem Not Working
- I have horrible self-esteem, i dont even know how i ended up with my amazing gf. But i did,so....
- Socializing Working / Worked
- Im in a relationship right now, and its helped raise my self-esteem alittle bit, but i feel comfortable when i talk to her, and i want to feel that way when i talk to anyone, confident.lol
Open High School Stress
Pretty much i hate school, cuz i never seem to be able to make friends, and im always making my mom mad, cuz of my grades. If school was easier, i might actually like it.
Open Depression - Teen
I dont care about anything.... i dont want anything...i just dont care what happens to me... i want to die...
Open Self-Injury
I cut, i like to punch things, i just like to feel pain. Latley its gottn worse, and i need more help than im getting at home.
Open Phobia
Type: Fear Of Public SpeakingIm afraid of rejection from my peers.... i cant speak up infront of my own classes...i get too shakey and i clam up...it sucks..and im trying to get to the bottom of it..so i can fix it and move on.
Treatments
- Acceptance Working / Worked
- If i were to just let go of that fear of rejection (from my peers) i would most likey be able to function normally...and be able to get back to school...
Open Family Issues
Im super unhappy and kinda given up on myself, and my family instead of trying to help me, just bash me more for being a failure.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Since i was 10 to about a year ago my moms boyfriend verbaly and sometimes physically abused me, and its just made living harder. Hes not around any more, but i still get wierd around that kinda stuff.
Open Stress Management
Im always stressed out, and i dont know how to at least make it simmer down.
Open Anxiety
I get these weird "spells" when i feel nervous or anything like that, and its messn with everyday shit with me.
Open Internet Addiction
Im always on... takes away from other things that are more important
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
Just having small issues here and there..could use some advice...lol
Open Anger Management
My fuse has gottn shorter but more explosive....its caused alot of bad things to happen and im tryn to work through it.
