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vino 
12:41pm, December 10, 2008
Cheated!
Move on, move on; this is what I’m told by my family and friends that surround me today. But how does one move on from being cheated out of his life. This is my question; how? I feel like my father has stolen my mother, family and my only chance at a good life, all because of a crime of passions. So this is how I started Life:
On a good day in Sept. they celebrated her 34th birthday. The following month they celebrated his first birthday and in Nov. on a sad and cold rainy day; they mourned for her and he is now a Burden for the “Ones that did not ask to be the Ones”.
I feel stuck in the past and in the wanting to know what it feels like to be a Family; like the Family that was, before I came along. The Family I see in old picture; I long for that; a mother, a father, and to be along side of my siblings with a Smile on my face as they are. This is my everlasting unattainable Wish. ~Vino Garcia
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I think I need to start with small goals in order for my life to get better, really small, like get my SS Card then a State ID and then a Job; any Job.
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Good idea! Yeah, focus on one step at a time. I'm pulling for ya!
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Vino, You have a plan. You are now well on your way. good luck bud.
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one step at a time
Past Entries
The moving on has to come from a place within you, like being ready to jump from a high dive.
If someone else tries to make you ready, to pry your fingers off the railing or jangle your feet from the board, most times you only feel less secure, less ready to let go.
Step 1 is to think about what would make you feel safe to let go, or rather, more comfortable with what has happened.
Wendyhi
I've realized that in order to let go of the pain you have to forgive. I used to think to myself how can one person forgive another for causing so pain, but it's something you have to find in yourself. I think once you've expressed your feelings (and I mean REALLY express it) I think you will be able to let go of your pain. (((hugs))) I will pray for you to heal.
4myFam
I understand.
I never had a real family either & my childhood was snuffed out by abuse.
I try to forgive & focus on little things.
But I know it's hard.
[[[HUGS & LIGHT]]]
xOx
moonstar
I know the feeling of that all to well. Not being raised by my father or mother. (hugs)
Venus7
do you mean about moving on with your life with what you have been delt with(hiv)? Your art work I would love hanging in my living room,My style.YOU HAVE TALENT!!!!!!
clintonh
Wow, what a powerful punch of a journal entry.
I do not know your story.
Obviously there are some pieces mentioned above.
I also feel stuck in the past.
More and more people are telling me to let go and move on.
Just maybe that is exactly what I should do.
Forget the loving family life I did not have, forget the loss of the closeness I had with my sons when they were younger, forget the love that I thought would be waiting for me in the future, which is now.
This jarred me, Vino.
Thank you for sharing it with us.
GoodGod
Thanks to you...I got all shook up.
I am going to do it.
I am going to do something that I have been unable to do for a very long time.
I have felt cheated because I never got this.
I don't know how I will reach this goal, but I will.
This came my way tonight.
I am sharing it with you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-dG...
GoodGod