One steady step at a time….
September 14, 2009 9:50pm
I thought since I had a few moments I would get in an over due journal update…
This is the week it all happens. I am for the most part finished …
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OpheliaRising
1:13pm, October 18, 2009
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About Me
OpheliaRising
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About Me
I am now living in Ohio officially separated from my Husband in Texas. We still adore and respect each other but found due to my struggle with anxiety, panic attacks and depression (despite me making great headway with my issues) that it would be best for his sanity that we were separated. I own a small business where I hand make candles, soaps, and bath products. I have just graduated from College with a Diploma of Master Herbalism. I wish to continue my schooling when finances allow to get an Associates of Applied Science in Holistic Medicine. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression my whole life. I figured everyone felt the way I did. To deal with it I became a cutter at 6 years of age. I am proud to say after about 18 years of cutting it has stopped thanks to the support and understanding of my husband now turned friend. Now, it’s time to deal with the major underlining causes. I am just trying to understand and learn so I can grow more as the healthy person I am MEANT to be! :)
I am now living in Ohio officially separated from my Husband in Texas. We still adore and respect each other but found due to my struggle with anxiety, panic attacks and depression (despite me making great headway with my issues) that it would be best for his sanity that we were separated. I own a small business where I hand make candles, soaps, and bath products. I have just graduated from College with a Diploma of Master Herbalism. I wish to continue my schooling when finances allow to get an Associates
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Interests
Music, Poetry, Writing, Needle Work / Sewing, Baking, Making Crafts of all kinds, Photography / Photo Editing, Astronomy, Gardening (still workin on gettin my green thumb! hehe), Web Design, Blythe Dolls, Hello Kitty, Tinkerbell, Bento Boxes and chatting.
Music, Poetry, Writing, Needle Work / Sewing, Baking, Making Crafts of all kinds, Photography / Photo
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November 6
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OpheliaRising commented on KCJ’s photo 11:20am
oh wow! All of them are beautiful! Great work! xoxoxox…
March 30
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OpheliaRising turned 29 12:00am
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Thank you for the comment on my earrings
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That is what I had thought too. Oh wow you are a herbologist - would you join me on
http://kcjmusings.ning.com/
and help me with an herb group? Basically the whole group is about healing - spiritual and physical so you might like it for that too -
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Oh Honey growing hurts - whether it is physical or spiritual growth - we all have to do it - just keep going and you WILL make it - I know because I have faith in you. I hope you will keep in touch with us once you move
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Thanks for the hot tip. I was pasteing from MS Word. It was ticking me off. I have had it work but not all the time. I will try your way. Thanks again. How are things going for you? Hope things are better. Naomi xo
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she is returning to court in dec with another lawyer and one that i hope will work FOR her this time
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
The past few months I have been doing research on my anxiety and depression. I have suffered with it almost my whole life thinking that everyone lives like this. These past few months have been especially hard. It has gotten so bad that it is a struggle to do every day things like go shopping, to the movies etc. I feel like though those about me are supportive that they dont truly understand.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Anytime I get that "rush" I start taking deep breaths. It seems to help but I found positive dialogue along with it works wonders.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Sometimes a "time out" helps a lot.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Works wonders.
- St. John\'s Wort Working / Worked
Close Depression
The past few months I have been doing research on my anxiety and depression. I have suffered with it almost my whole life thinking that everyone lives like this. These past few months have been especially hard but I am getting through it.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
- I have kept a journal for as long as I can remember.
Open Panic Attacks
The past few months I have been doing research on my anxiety and depression. I have suffered with it almost my whole life thinking that everyone lives like this. These past few months have been especially hard.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Patience Working / Worked
- Being gentle to yourself is most important! :)
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- works wonders!
Open Self-Injury
Once upon a time I was a cutter. I did it for 18 years. Now I am recovering. I am here to help others like me. It can stop. :)
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- I call it Rambling. Call it what you will- just talk, write it down etc.
Open Healthy Eating
For the past few years I have been really conscious about the foods I put in my body. Yes, I slip up sometimes- dont we all- but for the most part I try to stay on a healthy eating plan which is assisting me in losing weight.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
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Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
Four of my close friends in the course of an 8 year period took their lives with one, Gabe, taking his life right in front of me while I tried to stop him. I think this is a hurt I will forever carry.
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- As cliche as it sounds "time heals all". I am now at peace.
- Talking Working / Worked
- At first I didnt speak about any of it much, however, later in life I found remembering is the best way to visit them.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I have journals full of my pain, rage, hate, love etc. I wrote some of my best poetry blinded by tears.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentMy Great Grandmother passed away yesterday. She was like a Mother to me. She was the only one in my family that understood me, protected me, and loved me. I miss her so much.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Its touch and go with the crying right now.
- Helping Others Working / Worked
- I love helping others and through that I know I make her proud. Kindness is rare and if I have it to give I will do so.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music is my breath!
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have a yorkie, Loki, that I cuddle and snuggle when upset.
- Poetry Working / Worked
- Grammie loved it when I would read my poetry to her so I write on.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Sailing her home through prayer, laughter and tears.
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Its comforting. It feels like she is here.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My Husband has been amazing and of course a handful of my close friends have come to my aid. I am blessed.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Husband has been encouraging me to speak with him- or even write. It helps a lot.
- Time Working / Worked
- I never been in this world without her....I dont think thats something you get over.
