servus's Journal

I went to Kentucky last week.....to visit "Kentucky". I didnt know how everything would go, but I had a good feeling. Im glad I went. I had a blast! We watched movies, went to dinner, to the park, walking downtown, to the lake with her friends.....that was a total blast! I watched one of her softball games......she & her team are really good. She taught me how to make my own canvas......I painted for the first time in years. She even took me to go buy a new sketch pad & everything just started flowing. Shes really opened me up in a way that I havent felt in years. My art has been stifled for so long.....& I cant believe she was able to bring it out of me. Not because she isnt inspiring.....she is, but because I usually only feel this way with Lovers, & I do not view her as a Lover, but she inspires me as such. I find it fascinating & confusing all the same.

Anyway I ended up staying for a week. I came home a day later than Id planned because I got started on a large painting the day I was supposed to leave :)  I didnt finish it. So, Im going back this weekend to do so. Plus, Im going to watch a softball tournament of hers.

I do find it strange to want to see someone so often, but not see them as a Lover. And at the same time, thats what I enjoy most. Does this make sense? I wonder others opinions. It makes sense to me....but none the less fascinates me.