Andiekins's Journal

Yesterday was the first time in I didn't know how long that I had any desire to come online. Last night, I ended up making contact with an old friend who'd informed me that I'd been "away" for just shy of a year! I'm kinda dumbfounded by that. How easy it is to let Depression & Illness disrupt your life.

Wow... hard to believe it's been so long! But I'm back and will hopefully have an easier time with things. 

::sigh::

    I went offline. For months I absolutely dreaded the idea of coming back online and back to DS. I just got to a place where I felt there was too much being asked/expected of me. I had some folks constantly wanting emotional support, others just wanted to cause problems, etc.  And so for my own mental health, I had to "check out" for a while.

    Can't say I'm 100% out of the black hole I was in, but I'm hoping that expanding my world a bit more, getting outta my head more, exerting more effort in finding the hope that I need... that all of this will change things for me. I so desperately need a change!  :/

Soooo... I'm back, gang! Here's hoping this ride's a good one.