lovableaussie's Journal

well, where to start. i'm feeling a bit dark at the moment. me and my boyfriend broke up 3 days after christmas and i'm not sure how to feel about him at the moment. he was supposed to be there for me. i trusted him with my deepest secrets and was always honest when i wasn't feeling the best. i thought he could cope with it, but no, that wasn't the case at all. he knew about my bipolar, and now he is telling me he isn't strong enough to deal with it. how the hell am i supposed to trust another man?? i'm not saying they are all the same, it's just my faith has gone.

i'm usually a very trusting person, but this whole incident has changed me. i don't care anymore, and i tried to take my own life the other day. i got sent home from hospital, i had plans to go to somewhere the next day and try again. luckily my friend offered me a room at her place and stopped me from going ahead with it. the thoughts are still there though.

i just feel so unworthy of love at the moment, it doesn't feel like i belong in this world anymore.