rebeljen's Journal

I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT OUR MEMORIES AND HOW PRECIOUS THEY ARE TO ME....I HAVE FOUND MYSLEF REFLECTING ON GRE AND I AND OUR LIFE TOGETHER AND I FIND IT'S THE LITTLE THINGS THAT BRING ME JOY AND I LOVE TO SHARE THEM.  BUT NOW I SHARE THEM WITH A SMILE AND NOT THROUGH MY TEARS.  LIKE THE TIME WE WER DATING AND WE WENT TO THE GROCERY STORE AND AS WE PASSED THE PRODUCE DEPARTMENT HE PICKED UP 3 ORANGES RIGHT THERE AND STARTED TO JUGGLE THEM.  I REMEMBER BEING EMBARASSED AND SCOLDING HIM WITH THIS SMILE ON MY FACE, AND OTHER PEOPLE WHO MUST HAVE SEEN WE WERE JUST DATING LAUGHING AT US.  OR THE TIMES WE WOULD BE WATCHING MOVIES AND WHEN ONE WOULD END HE'D SAY....LETS GOT TO REBEL (THE GAS STAION) AND GET SOMETHING TO DRINK.  AND WE WOULD COME HOME WITH 2 OR 3 LITTLE PACKAGES OF ZINGERS AND A QUART OF MILK TO SHARE.  AND WE WOULD EAT THEM ALL AND THEN COMPLAIN HOW SICK WE FELT.  I HAD A MOMENT AT WORK YESTERDAY.  A CUSTOMER BOUGHT CHOCOLATE ZINGERS AND MILK AND I REMEMBERED HOW MUCH HE LOVED THOSE THINGS AND SO I HAD TO BUY SOME.  AND I ATE THE WHOLE PACKAGE BY MYSELF AND DRANK MY MILK WITH A SMILE......

SO TELL ME DOES THIS MEAN I AM HEALING? I THINK SO AND I AM GLAD FOR THAT.  I AM GLAD THAT I CAN LAUGH AND SMILE AGAIN AND LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.  I PRAY THAT EACH OF YOU FIND MOMENTS IN YOUR MEMORY THAT BRING YOU JOY AND THAT YOU CAN REFLECT ON THOSE FOND MEMORIES WITH A SMILE.....THEY WILL BE WITH YOU ALL FOREVER.

LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE........JEN